1) This past semester, I thought I would be able to handle a course load of one course. I am an Innovation Academy student, therefore I follow a spring-summer schedule in lieu of the typical fall - spring term. I had decided to retake a course I had failed earlier that spring, as I had not given up hope for the major I thought I wanted to pursue.
2) Though I took one course, it was a lot to manage for someone who was unmotivated and struggling emotionally. It was hard to get out of bed every morning, not because my bed was so comfortable that I’d much rather do that, but due to constantly slipping into, out of and through depressive states throughout the years without seeking medical attention. Failure to do so led to my mental illness taking over me, and preventing me from completing the simplest tasks.
3) I do not view failure as negative. It takes time to overcome challenges and facing failure so often has led up to personal growth. I handle failure terribly. If one thing goes wrong, so does everything else. I do not do well emotionally, nor behaviorally but have tried to become more self aware of instances that have a tendency to lead up to failure. This class has changed my perspective on failure due to having to take risks in order to make progress. This is a valuable skill that can be applied to all aspects within one’s life.
Hi Victoria. Thank you for sharing. Although I cannot begin to imagine what you must have been going through, I am empathetic with your situation and hope that you find peace within your life. I am not depressed, but I have many friends and family who deal with the illness, and it is hard to watch. I really hope that everything is good with you and if you need anything, honestly reach out.
ReplyDeletehi Vic. Thank you for sharing. Spring semester always sets a weird tone for me as well. I know you are passionate, and creative, and getting out of a rut is hard. I believe in you, and I know we can do this together.
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